Psssst….Ay, What You Get For #6?
It dawned on me today that I am no longer as nerdy as I once was. I used to be the girl all the dumb football players would try and cheat off of in school because I always had my head in a book and knew all the right answers. As pretty as I may have been back then, guys never saw that…to them I was a nerd, they wanted me for my MIND. I guess I wanted to be known as the pretty one, but now that that is all men seem to see in me, I miss that same desire for my thoughts that once existed. Beauty is a muh fucka. I am grateful for my genetics, I was truly blessed, but I kinda wanna be that nerd again. All this GMAT studying kind of brings me back to my roots… I love to learn, and I think all the extra curriculars and jobs I held while in college took away from my learning. It turned into doing assignments and studying JUST to pass the class and move on; it was no longer about the content. My desire to learn has not faded, I just think the focus has switched to other things…instead of worrying about laws, history, facts, I have started to learn more about LIFE and how to make it out here…. I think that is the reason why I am so social with people… honestly, fuck trying to flirt with guys or make female friends… I just want to learn…what do you do? Where do you come from? How did you make it? What were your failures? Successes? Biggest challenges? My curiosity is peeked… I absorb EVERYTHING, and I think observing people is one of the best ways to learn… I KNOW I’m going to make it, failure is not an option… I’m so young and still so eager to find my niche. I think I am beginning to narrow down things that I want to do, but I hate being a female in a man’s world, especially in the industries I want to dominate. I don’t think people take me seriously because I am a young, outgoing, female. But damn… I’ve got drive, I’ve got smarts, and above all of that, I’ve got heart. Nonetheless, I will continue to learn from those in front of me because I know there’s so much for me out there, and I just want my slice of the pie…. in fact, I want an entire pie to myself, fat girl for life, fuck whatchu heard.