I’m Getting’ Tired of the Same ol’ Same…
After a little keeping in touch, I came across him last night while out. Initially caught a couple of butterflies seeing him again… was wondering if he was going to be as sweet as he was when we had met a couple of weeks ago. Unfortunately, he wasn’t….surprise. A part of me kind of felt stupid to have gotten a little geeked when I saw him. Not that he was mean, because he wasn’t….but I felt different about the entire situation. Moving on, I did what I could to enjoy myself; kept minimal interaction with him and that was that…Definitely wasn’t trying to sweat him, that’s never a good look.
Towards the end of the night, I notice him taking a special interest in this waitress. Now, I am not the jealous type at all, but it did get me thinking…. I wonder if he’s telling her the same shit he told me. I could see her smiling as wide as I did when I first met him, and it made me feel like I was just one of the many females he ran this line on. How could someone so sweet act so differently now when I saw him? Are the sweet lines just a strategy to book a female? What’s the point of booking someone and then never acting on it? There are just so many questions to be asked but no one ever wants to answer them….truthfully. I can tell you that I am definitely disinterested at this point in time, and this has left me in the dust feeling apart of a never-ending cycle with these men. It’s pretty disheartening and being a part of this cycle doesn’t make me feel special at all.
I contribute a lot of the immaturity and games to the young age of these dudes, but at the end of the day, what’s really the fucking point?! On a mission to swoon every female you come in to contact with to boost your ego? What a fucking waste. Of course I am not mad… can’t be mad at the things that have become commonplace in life, but it sucks having to retire him before anything even started. Obviously I am not mad and won’t give him any attitude if I see him again, but something just rubbed me the wrong way last night and I can’t quite put my finger on it….