Better To Have Loved & Lost, Than Never To Have Loved At All.
Hi. Ive been thinking about you a lot lately. Since we have lost all forms of communication, I figured I’d write my feelings down in hopes of releasing some of this pain. I love you. I will always love you for the rest of my life. No man has ever loved me the way that you did. Looking back, I used to get so angry with you but it was always over things that you wanted for my own benefit. I guess I always made you shut up so I could find out the hard way. Thank you. I needed to learn some things on my own. But, no matter how hard things were, there you were… Right beside me. My biggest cheerleader, my best friend, my support. I remember how we met. Never did I think someone could have that kind of emotional, physical, spiritual connection with me…I was wrong. You were the last person I’d ever put myself with, yet 4 years later. I’m sitting here as your estranged girlfriend instead of your wife.
I didn’t mean to break your heart. I hope you know that things happened the way they did because I wasn’t ready, there was nothing you could have done to make me not want to be with you. I miss having you to call. Hours we used to spend on the phone and it used to feel like nothing. Who would have thought we would have so much in common?! All the laughs, tears, encouraging pieces of advice; you got me through the hardest and most developing time in my life. You watched me grow.
Thank you. Thank you for loving me the way you did… The way you still do. I know you still think about me every day and reach for your phone to call me in the mornings when you wake up like you used to. I know it’s too hard for you to keep in touch; it hurts, and I’d never want to cause you anymore pain. Thank you. Thank you for showing me what real selfless love is. I now know not to settle for anyone because I have had the best before and anything short of that would be a waste. Thank you. For putting up with me. I know I’m not the easiest person to love, but you saw passed everything on the surface and appreciated me for the sweet heart I am and good soul you know I have. I wish more people would do that, I have so much love to give Thank you for making me ME.
I know you won’t ever read this, and I wish you could. I don’t ever want you to think I stopped loving you. I know things could never be the same, and I hope I don’t die before I find another man who will take the time to get through and touch my heart like you did. I long for that everyday. Thank you for loving me at my best, worst, and those times you felt like throwing in the towel. You have changed my life forever, I know it wasn’t easy for you.
I wish I knew how you were doing, it kills me that I don’t. I’ll love you until the day that I die. Don’t ever forget that.